Courage & Happiness

I've been in Oklahoma 5 weeks, now. That's so hard to believe. Some days it seems like forever, and other days it seems just like yesterday that I left my home state of Kentucky.

Some days I wonder if I'm living a dream, and other days I wonder what the hell I'm doing. That all comes with change though, right? Everyone told me that this wouldn't be easy, and well I didn't expect it to be. Because if it was easy, then it wouldn't be worth it. But wow, I never dreamt that it would be so damn difficult. Unnecessary stress being caused by individuals that aren't happy I'm here, due to their own selfishness. Normal life stress and problems. And battling the past. Combine all of that, and boy oh boy, most of the time I don't know whether I'm coming or going.



The one thing I do have is faith. Faith that these negatives will turn into positives.  Faith that THIS is meant to be. He and I are meant to be. And faith, that we can overcome any storm that is put in our path.  Without faith, I'd be lost.

And with that being said, I found this on that lovely website Pinterest; and it is so fitting to my life right now. Maybe one day people will get it; and then again maybe they won't. This life is mine, and well my happiness and his, are number ONE!

Thankful

I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore.

I need to refocus my mind, my thoughts, my emotions to something a bit more positive. It seems lately that frustration and anger have took hold. I don’t like who I am, the person I’m seeing, or the way I’m feeling. I need peace, some alone time, and writing out of my thoughts.

For now, this is a start:

• I’m grateful for you driving us a little out of the way on our way home the other day, just so I could see buffalo. For the first time. Live Buffalo. Of course, I took pictures.
• I’m thankful for sunshine & warm spring days.
• I’m thankful for peaceful days spent at home, alone. With just myself and my thoughts.
• I’m thankful for our date night last night. An Italian Dinner and a couple drinks at the local bar.
• I’m thankful for your shy, but proud smile, when someone congratulates you on having me by your side.
• I’m thankful how you thought of me the other night, and asked if I wanted to ride “Funky” after you finished getting cattle up.

I know things are bumpy right now, but please know that I am forever grateful for the smallest of gestures that maybe sometimes I take for granted.

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New Beginnings in Oklahoma

I made it to Oklahoma on Sunday morning, yes I know,  4 days ago. It still seems surreal as I’m living in a dream, and at any given point someone is going to pinch me and I’m going to have to wake up and leave this happiness.

We left Kentucky on Saturday night at 5:30 pm and drove straight through. Some doubted me, thought I wouldn't make it, nor would I be tough enough to endure the drive. There were moments that my eyelids got heavy, but with phone calls from my sweet mamma, a couple friends and Joey, loud music and lots of caffeine we pulled into our driveway at 8:00am Sunday morning. Joey continuously called me to check on me as I was following behind him, the concern and care in his voice is one that I will always remember.

Traveling down the interstate.

After sleeping til 5:30 Sunday afternoon, we sleepily went and found some dinner. We ate at Santa Fe Cattle Company, a burger for me. I was so tired, food didn’t even really matter to me. We came home and sat out some hay for the cattle, went driving through the fields on search of wild hogs and stumbled across two buffalo skulls instead. Riding in the feed truck sitting right next to Joey, his arm wrapped around my shoulders, and my hand on his leg, I can just say that I was in heaven. Please don’t make this dream stop playing.

The rest of this week has consisted of, feeding cattle, learning how to drive a truck with a cattle trailer attached ( I rocked that shit), falling asleep and waking up next to the man that was truly  meant for me, eating breakfast & dinner together, long conversations, endless hugs and kisses (finally, no more text message kisses and hugs)! These are REAL, people! And my, they are SO wonderful! We’ve spent late nights at the stockyards helping load cattle, spending days at the livestock sales buying cattle, attempting to unpack, seeing my first armadillo (tonight) and endless laughs.

Sunday morning Joey told me he was proud of me, all as I watched the sunrise outside my window as I was arriving at my new home. A beautiful way to start my first day in my new home. It’s a moment that will be forever etched into my mind.

My first sunrise in Oklahoma 

Traveling down a dirt road 

I never knew that I could be so madly in love with my life.

Thankful Tuesday

I'm linking up with the lovely Felicity, for Thankful Tuesday! 

This week I am thankful for: 

1). Wonderful friends & late night house calls when I just need someone to talk to. 

2). Ice Cream, because well...it does make everything better 

3). For my much needed break from "working". I didn't realize how over stressed & miserable I really was! 

4). For warm weather, sunshine & rain showers. It's beginning to feel like SPRING! 

What are you thankful for this week? 

Ice Cream is the Cure All

No one said that LOVE was easy, and hell if it was it wouldn't be worth it. Right?

I adore him, more than I thought I ever could anyone on this planet. He's my best friend, and has been for 20 years. That's his saving grace at this moment.

 For now, I'll enjoy my Double Fudge Cookie Dough Blizzard, and get lost in the music playing into my ears.

Let's blame it on PMS and the Full Moon. Hell it's worth a shot...

My Life in Instagram, as of Lately

Because, who is not addicted to Instagram these days? It seems to be how I'm documenting my life more lately than not, so here we go!

From top to bottom:
1. Spending time at the barn & Maci Dog
2. Lilly aka "Princess
3. Trying to pack and Little Kitty wants to join in on the fun.
4. Team Canada at Horseshoeing Competition
5. Team Canada at Horseshoeing Competition
6. Celebrating National Margarita Day w/ my momma
7. Me and my "Little Bro" at my going away dinner.

Happy Sunday!

Text Message Fun

Joey: What ya doing? 

Me: Fixing to do some laundry

Joey: Do mine too

Me: I can't i'm not there 

Joey: I can wait 2 weeks 

Me: I'm not doing 2 weeks worth of laundry lol

Joey: I can wait

Me: Nope, lol. You'll be on your own. 

Joey: Nope

Me: Really? 

Joey: You'll be right beside me. 

And with that, my heart melted.