Tuesday, December 23, 2008


Perception leads to judgment. A first impression. We all are guilty of this, but yet where does it take us in reality?

It's funny how the world seems to perceive one another. I have often wondered how people perceived me as? Their first general impression of me. I found this out, not too long ago, and was interested to see, that it was completely off base.

I was told not too long ago, that you perceived me as a person that needed to loosen up, live life. All because i'm not an incredibly open individual right away, I keep up my guard. A few weeks have passed, and your perception of me has completely changed. You are an amazingly passionate woman..... so much thats hidden from the world..... its crazy.Nobody would ever imagine. Isn't it funny, how an impression can change in such a short matter of time, by only just listening and learning about one another. I guess it's like the old saying, Don't judge a book by it's cover.

My first impression of you, was one that was "cocky, had a one track mind, and very bold and powerful". Now I'm not sure about anyone else, but those 3 combinations are definitely not ones that I would want in someone, I'm contemplating on getting to know. Something about you, drew me in, and oh how completely off base I really was. You aren't cocky, you're confident. Such a great way to be! Confidence is so rare to find these days, and yet so appealing in my eyes. One track mind, oh how wrong I was. There's more to you than definitely meets the eye. You are such an intelligent man, with such a depth of knowledge on topics of a vast degree. Your thirst for knowledge, is sexy. Bold & powerful - defines only the top layer of your individuality.

My first impression of you, almost kept me away.

Kept me away from great conversations...

Endless laughter...

Someone to confide in....

Someone who is non judgmental...yet accepts me for who I am...

Perception leads to judgment, in reality where does this take us?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


The thought of being alone I think frightens some more than others. Why is that? Is it the fear of spending the rest of their life with just themselves and their surroundings that they've created thus far?

When I hear someone talk about how they are scared to spend the rest of their life alone, or that it worries them to no end, it saddens me a great deal. My belief is that you have to be completely at peace with yourself and love
YOU before you can even begin to become comfortable with the thought of spending time alone, no matter the time frame.

I am one that absolutely loves my
ALONE time, and it's something that I require and make time for in my life. It's almost as it's therapy for me. I can sort out my thoughts, just be by myself, spend time doing the things I enjoy and completing them at my pace.

In reality though, are we ever fully alone? We create our life and our surroundings, so therefor we hold a balance of what and who we let into our life. No matter what, i'm never fully going to ever feel alone in life. Why you may ask? I have made my life full of great friends and people that I know will always be there no matter the circumstance, even in my darkest of days.

Feeling comfortable within yourself while being alone is an exceptional accomplishment for all...something that I believe everyone should be able to experience and enjoy.


Thursday, October 16, 2008

Aye Aye Captain

Captain Morgan, aye aye Captain! Spiced are you, just how spicy can you be? I like a little spice in my life, could you add to it!? Rum I'm saying, Rum....making my thoughts a little disoriented, blurry sights, ahh but the lovely possibilities and dreams rushing through!

Captain, you wear a patch over thy eye? Maybe you're a pirate, like Pirates of the Carribbean, Johnny Depp, he's hott, yes I'll take that. One for every day of the week! :). Oh wait, leave room for the hot fireman, he can put out the fires, that aye aye Captain may ignite! :).

Fabulous idea, entereing the Liquor Store this grand evening. Never did I realize, i'd be dreaming of Johnny Depp. Maybe I shall do this more often. Fireman suggested you, recommended I shall say. Spiced Rum...Yes he knew what I needed in my life, although he sure adds enough spice! I think he just wanted a fire to put out....oh there's one ignited .

Off to salute you Aye Aye Captain! There seems to be a drought in my glass....can't have that now can we? Off on another voyage....

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

20 Things About Me

1. I’m a cancer survivor and I am PROUD to shout that out loud. It’s my greatest accomplishment thus far.
2. I’ve seen EVERY episode of Grey’s Anatomy and Desperate Housewives. I’m insanely addicted.
3. I was a horrible writer in high school. Not sure where my “knack” for writing poetry came from, but I’m definitely glad I discovered it.
4. I have 2 closets FULL of clothes, half of them I’ve never worn, and probably never will. I’m not as much of a girly girl as I tend to appear to be on the outside.
5. I lost my right leg to cancer when I was 14. It’s proven to be my most difficult struggle yet. I’m anxiously awaiting January when I’ll be learning how to run!!!
6. I absolutely LOVE surprises!!!
7. I’m a complete music junkie! The only time I’m not listening to music is when I’m sleeping. Honestly!!
8. I HATE being center of attention. Often I find myself when being in large crowds, tending to withdraw and becoming extremely shy and quiet. (Who would’ve ever thought?)
9. I have a huge PASSION for volunteering. I do anything from mentoring pediatric cancer patients, volunteering at the children’s hospital, raising money for Relay For Life, did a pen pal program to soldiers over seas who don’t receive mail, etc..
10. I absolutely DESPISE peanut butter. Although I’ve been told I make some awesome peanut butter fudge…I wouldn’t know?
11. When I’m mad I bake. Anything that I can find…
12. I am a sucker for men with accents and deep voices.
13. I’m teaching myself sign language
14. I am very spontaneous. I will do anything spur of the moment.
15. I sleep with a Stuffed Teddy Bear…I can’t fall asleep without holding onto something.
16. I LOVE the color pink. My sheets on my bed are pink, my purse is pink, my camera case is pink, used to have a pink phone (it died), pink contacts case, …you get the picture!
17. I love taking pictures!! I never go anywhere without my camera! I hate posed photographs and think that the ones you snap spur of the moment have much more character
18. I’ve always wanted to learn how to dance…lord knows I have no rhythm…unless I’m drinking and then I really don’t care how foolish I may look! *haha*
19. If you lie to me you’ll lose my trust forever. So, don’t even try getting it back…because as far as I’m concerned you aren’t a part of my life anymore.
20. I don’t wear anything other than Victoria Secret undergarments…*haha* may have been more info than you wanted to know!

Yay I did it!!!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Alvin the Chipmunk

Alvin the Chipmunk, has entered the building!! Okay, so now I'm probably being presumed as a little "crazy"...that's okay I like crazy!!!
This morning I was sitting at work, and I work at a State Horse Park the weather was cool and crisp so I decided to have the front door open. Well suprisingly enough, a chipmunk ran in our office!!
Those little creatures are sneaky!!! He ran into every office in the building and then ran by the refrigerator where he hid between the wall and the fridge!! Now what do we do!?
!My boss & I tried to break off a rice cake (although I think those things are disgusting, so I don't know why he'd like those)...but anywho he took it back into his little corner and hung out.
6 hours later, the little man finally decided to venture out and we were finally able to "scoot" him out the door.
Haha the excitement for a Friday morning!! :)
Hope everyone has a good one!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Who I Am

Who I am
Very raw and to the core
Honesty is brutal
Something you covet
Yet when offered
You discard
Authentic and true
Alter myself
For your acceptance
Will not transpire
My soul is at peace
Self acceptance
Established at last

Friday, September 12, 2008

Happy Birthday Mom

Today was my Mom's Birthday!!!
Happy Birthday Mom!!

Me and her had a girls night together!!! I love those, they are simply the best!
I took her to dinner, that's what she wanted. I also gave her a book of my poetry I have written. She absolutely loved that!!! Considering she didn't even know that I wrote.

We did some shopping!!! Now who can go wrong with that, right?!?
I bought 3 books, YAY for me! I'm a complete book worm, and have probably way TOO many books that I haven't even read, but hey what's a few more to add to the list "To Be Read".

Also, found the movie "Into the Wild", that I was telling you about the other day, that I completely love!!! So when I saw it on sale, I just had to snag it!

And then bought a couple cd's. As well as my mom one too!
Have any of you heard of KT Tunstall? I absolutely love her music. She's brilliant. Just watching her play music live, is astonishing. If you haven't seen her, youtube her!! I'm sure you'll love her!

So now i'm relaxing, reading some blogs, listening to my tunes and watching Pretty Woman on tv. *Love this movie*.......

Hope everyone had a wonderful Friday Evening! :).

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Adventures of Coming Home

So I felt like it took me a million years to get home. Walked outside and literally it started torentially down pouring!!! Not that I'm complaining we need the rain, ( Okay yes I am complaining). Couldn't it of least waited untill I get home. I had errands to run. And frankly, I do not like "running" them in the pouring rain!!

The interstate, well people do not know how to drive when it rains! It's like a free for all to see who can die first. So for the "smart " people driving like sane human beings the speed limit was a mere 35 mph. Insane right? I already live like 35 minutes away from work....ahh this was going to take me forever to get home.

Well much to my surprise, I finally come to my exit and it hasn't rained a drop. Please tell me, how is this possible?? Weather is definitely not my forte, not that I ever claimed for it to be!

A good friend called as I'm getting off the interstate, I miss her ( She Moved to Minnesota)...maybe I shall have to make a roadtrip up there soon! Well I either better hurry or wait till it's spring again, I really don't want to fight with snow up to my knees! Anywho, it was great to talk with her! Trying to get down main street in my city is nearly impossible at rush hour, since they thought it would be a brilliant idea to make two lanes each way and reduce it to one lane each way. What were they thinking?? Ahh finally made it to my destination.

On my way home I suddenly realize my gas gauge is on "E"....I'm not going to make it home. Crap!! And can I just say while I'm on my venting marathon, that I absolutely hate paying the ridiculous gas prices these days!!! They jumped 20 cents overnight, in fear of "IKE". Freakin Hurricane! That's another blog in itself.

Okay enough of my ranting and venting. I'm at home now, obviously. How else would I be typing this blog? Hmm....maybe I have super powers! *haha*. I'm watching Rachel Ray - she's quite fabulous! I wonder how that woman comes up with all these fab recipes and cooks them in 30 minutes. She makes it look so easy. And she's making me hungry. Off to find dinner!!

I shall return. Thanks for listening :).

Peace & Love

Gas Prices....WTF?!?

Completely disgusted!! That would be my mood at this very moment.

Why, you may ask?? Well to I'm sure all of your knowledge, there is a hurricane headed straight for Texas. "Ike"....oh what a name! Please anyone whom may be in this hurricane's path, stay safe and get out of harms way.

Now back to my point...*sorry*

Last night, my gas tank was on "E". Yes, I was venting about paying such a high amount for gas prices....but now today I'm sitting here thankful that I filled up my tank when I did. Why?

Well let's just say that the lovely state of Kentucky that I live in has decided it would be a wonderful idea to gouge Gas Prices and they jumped a $1.00 a gallon!!!!!

Yes you read this correctly, gas prices are now a lovely $4.75 a gallon!!!! Excuse me, we aren't even in Texas, not even in the hurricanes path, and yet you still believe we should *jack* prices up to an insanel ridiculous amount!?!

Yes, here is now where I could go on about our lovely government, and be all political, but nope i'm not touching that subject. We i'm sure, all have our feelings and opinions about that.

The fact of the matter is, what is this world coming to?!? Individuals are now being forced to think, do I want food on the table, or do I want to be able to have money for gas to put in my tank so I can get back and forth to work.

I myself am completely appalled! How are the gas prices where you live?

I think now, I would like to have back the $3.75 gallon gas....now I can honestly say that I never thought I'd be wishing for that in my lifetime.

~Peace out~

L.A. Ink

Tattoos are incredibly sexy to me, on men that is.But I have to admit...that Kat Von D is quite glamorous with all of her artwork...something that alot of us aren't able to pull off! And might we add, incredibly talented.
Anywho...So anyone other than me, find tattoos appealing??
As far as mine, I'm contemplating boxing gloves to symbolize (FIGHTER) with the cancer survivor ribbon entertwined!! Original, unique, and completely ME!
What do you think?? This post is completely random, just thought i'd share a little side of me not known!
Feel free to throw your thoughts in there as well!
As far as Kat Von D.....you rock chick!


September 11th 2001
Oh how this day in our lives must live on
For thousands of souls forever lost
Freedom and liberty - how high the cost.

Over You

The title says it ALL! I'm over you, completely, I don't want you in my life. You caused enough heartache and strife to last a lifetime, and just when I think that you are completely gone you reappear. What am I talking about you may ask? My ex, decided to text me this weekend. Telling me he missed me, that he had "changed", his life was on track, etc. I really hope that this is the case for his sake, he needed to do something with himself. He said, "I miss you, i've been thinking about you, i want you back in my life.". NO, that will NEVER happen!!!! Yes at times, I miss the godo times that we had together, you were a part of my life for almost 2 years, but I do NOT miss the things that you did to me, the things I went through because of you, the person that I became. I didn't text him back in hopes that he would "dissappear". Well I guess my wish wasn't granted, as he texted me again this morning, saying Hope you have a Wonderful Day, call me sometime. I miss you.If anyone has ever heard the song "Over You" by Daughtry....it sums up everything I'm trying to say!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

I Believe

I believe in life and

in love

I believe laughter is the best medicine

I believe life doesn't turn out as always expected

and late nights produce the best memories

I believe anything is possible and

dreams are the passage to our heart

I believe life is as beautiful as one makes

and I believe in me!